grace shall be as your day
At 3:30 AM this morning, October 11, 2016 I was sitting on the couch feeding my precious little boy and reflecting on this day a year ago.
Last October 11th I was in the emergency room with my husband being told that we lost our baby.
We were having a miscarriage.
A year has gone by and I hugged my Hyrusha a little tighter, thanking Heavenly Father for this beautiful blessing in my life.
I don't know how miscarriage works into the plan of salvation that our Heavenly Father has for us. Does the miscarried baby just come later? Is it Hyrum? Will he or she never come again and will I get to raise him or her in the afterlife? These questions are unanswered for now. But I feel in my heart that that little tiny baby was its own little spirit. I don't know whether or not I'm right but I guess that is unimportant for know.
As I was feeding Hyrum, a line of a hymn came into my mind: "Grace shall be as your day."
Before getting married I took an English class
with the best teacher I have ever had. She spoke of this line about grace eluding that someday everyone should come to find out for themselves what that means.
"Grace shall be as your day."
I think that it was my time to figure it out.
What is grace?
Grace is a gift from Heavenly Father given through His Son, Jesus Christ. The word grace, as used in the scriptures, refers primarily to the enabling power and spiritual healing offered through the mercy and love of Jesus Christ.
This grace is given to all of God's children just as the days of our lives are given to us. One day after another as time goes on and with the mercy and love of the Savior we can be emotionally healed.
I have been emotionally healed.
A year ago I didn't know how I was going to move on.
I wanted a baby so badly.
I was devastated.
But Heavenly Father prepared me.
And the grace of the Savior was given to me daily.
He prepared me by prompting me to do a research project in that English class about miscarriage and its emotional effects on both the mother and the father. And the Savior's grace remained with me every day in this past year.
I like to think of grace as God's tender mercies--the personalized blessings that he gives us because he knows and loves us personally.
October 11, 2015 my husband and I lost that tiny baby.
But a tender mercy was that I had done so much research about emotional effects and emotional recovery of miscarriages.
He blessed us with loving family members worthy to give us priesthood blessings and comfort.
He blessed me with an understanding and compassionate mother who had also experienced miscarriage.
He blessed us with another baby a couple of months later which resulted in a smooth and low risk pregnancy.
He blessed us to be able to travel the world while pregnant and proved to me that I can do hard things.
He blessed us with Hyrum--my joy, my little light and my sunshine.
Grace was as my day.
And now that I feel like I understand that for myself,
I think that
Grace is as my day.
It can continue to be so as I continue to acknowledge
God's hand,
his grace,
and his tender mercies
in my life.
Last October 11th I was in the emergency room with my husband being told that we lost our baby.
We were having a miscarriage.
A year has gone by and I hugged my Hyrusha a little tighter, thanking Heavenly Father for this beautiful blessing in my life.
I don't know how miscarriage works into the plan of salvation that our Heavenly Father has for us. Does the miscarried baby just come later? Is it Hyrum? Will he or she never come again and will I get to raise him or her in the afterlife? These questions are unanswered for now. But I feel in my heart that that little tiny baby was its own little spirit. I don't know whether or not I'm right but I guess that is unimportant for know.
As I was feeding Hyrum, a line of a hymn came into my mind: "Grace shall be as your day."
Before getting married I took an English class
with the best teacher I have ever had. She spoke of this line about grace eluding that someday everyone should come to find out for themselves what that means.
"Grace shall be as your day."
I think that it was my time to figure it out.
What is grace?
Grace is a gift from Heavenly Father given through His Son, Jesus Christ. The word grace, as used in the scriptures, refers primarily to the enabling power and spiritual healing offered through the mercy and love of Jesus Christ.
This grace is given to all of God's children just as the days of our lives are given to us. One day after another as time goes on and with the mercy and love of the Savior we can be emotionally healed.
I have been emotionally healed.
A year ago I didn't know how I was going to move on.
I wanted a baby so badly.
I was devastated.
But Heavenly Father prepared me.
And the grace of the Savior was given to me daily.
He prepared me by prompting me to do a research project in that English class about miscarriage and its emotional effects on both the mother and the father. And the Savior's grace remained with me every day in this past year.
I like to think of grace as God's tender mercies--the personalized blessings that he gives us because he knows and loves us personally.
October 11, 2015 my husband and I lost that tiny baby.
But a tender mercy was that I had done so much research about emotional effects and emotional recovery of miscarriages.
He blessed us with loving family members worthy to give us priesthood blessings and comfort.
He blessed me with an understanding and compassionate mother who had also experienced miscarriage.
He blessed us with another baby a couple of months later which resulted in a smooth and low risk pregnancy.
He blessed us to be able to travel the world while pregnant and proved to me that I can do hard things.
He blessed us with Hyrum--my joy, my little light and my sunshine.
Grace was as my day.
And now that I feel like I understand that for myself,
I think that
Grace is as my day.
It can continue to be so as I continue to acknowledge
God's hand,
his grace,
and his tender mercies
in my life.
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